my dragon tale.

quick normal post? maybe not.. feel like ranting.

i wish i didn't feel this way.

so, as i've come to realize, i am now officially people-sick. yeah, some people have just recently started to "bother" me. idk why, but they have. little qualities that just begin to irk me and make me want to cringe to the marrow of my being.. >.>

however, i'll have to deal. unlike light, i do not have the power to eliminate anyone who i do not think is righteous under my judgment.

yes, so i am rewatching death note. english dubs of course. light + l's voices sound very realistic.

today was an okay day. grades were good, i guess. not much homework, but i managed to procrastinate and not "get ahead of the class" like i planned to. that's kind of unfortunate.

but i felt out of my environment today. very uncomfortable. like i didn't belong. thus, "i wish i could start over." part of me wants to go to governor's school of math and science because of this. i just don't feel like i belong in.. where i am today. it's a feeling i'm not quite used to, or i want to get used to..

ignorance bothers me. but i guess when i have my ipod, and i can convey my emotion while listening to sad songs, it works fine. it's not an iHuman though, but those things are priceless.. :)

but the day.. turned into night, and it got much better. the problem with gifts is almost solved. i think i have planned it all out well. hopefully. fingers crossed, knocking on wood.. luck oratory ftw. secret santa is bound to be interesting tomorrow. i've never actually participated in one, so i guess we'll see how it goes.

got sheet music for 'cai hong' and 'wo bu pei.' it's really good, great arrangement, and i can't wait to learn it. except i don't really know much of the chinese. and i have like.. one day. nothing a procrastinating forensicator can't manage. (except congress. 3 hours of sleep and not knowing enough about the topics is a pretty bad consequence of procrastinating. but i'll avenge myself at districts.) but anyways, i went off on a tangent. i feel more content now than i was before. before, i could've described it as a really low point in my life.. but i don't think it's that low. it was just that moment.

speaking of moments, when will i get my moment? hopefully soon. i hope that compsci will naturally come to me. or at least the prime numbers program so i don't let angela down. -.- felt so weak and nugatory (eheh) in compsci today. the holiday songs aren't as festive when you're stupid. xD

i wish, i wish, with all my heart.. to fly with dragons in a world apart..

wonder if you all recognize that? if you do, give it a whirl in a comment.

wishing doesn't work, but wanting it and making it happen can make your wishes come true. i'm really looking forward to saturday. i hope it'll be an amazing day. performing, meeting up with old friends, hanging out with them, shopping at the mall.. the only thing missing from that is I AM LEGEND. but that's okay. that can be the title to my movie.

i want to live my dragon tale.

- nocturne xx