my insight on driver's ed.

so everyone said this was a really stupid, worthless class.

and.. i really have to disagree.

sure, half the time we were talking/doing something worthless.

but i did learn. i really did.

i really did benefit from seeing.. my .. friends? from a long time ago. from elementary school. from middle school. who didn't recognize me, but still knew who i was. wow.

karson freeman, it was GREAT to see you today. hope i will see you again soon.

and yeah. i did learn. seeing the pictures of accidents, though i was somewhat grossed out at some, i didn't surprisingly faint. or pass out, or go crazy. i think i showed a bit of bravery. something came out that i didn't expect. maybe i could be a doctor? because i hurt when others hurt. but it's enough to motivate me to heal. isn't that what doctors are for?

i don't know if i'm gonna be a doctor, but i'm soon gonna be a driver. sure, i killed 5 cones :p at the alcoholic golf cart test run.. but does that mean much? i don't want to be a drunkard, or an alcoholic like (unfortunately) the guys in my class. i'd like to stay pure, and wayyyy under .01%.

alcohol kills. i don't get why fun and death can be sitting in the same palm and still crush itself. sigh.

i am.. i think, ready to get older. get more responsibility, be more mature and independent. i got my first CREDIT CARD today. me, the shop-a-holic, lmao. the child in the family that "spends all the money."

i think i'm growing up.

and when i grow up, i wanna be famous, i wanna be a star, i wanna be in movies.

or do i just want to help people?

either way, i think i'll be fine. :)

- gary

btw, "kiss the rain" by yiruma played while i posted this. i think it helped. a lot.