so i've felt really alone lately. this week has pretty much sucked as well.

progress reports were downright awful. awful. i'm barely passing a class. this isn't like me.. i don't know what i've become. :[

then, i'm just not feeling like i belong. anymore. today was pretty awkward, and it was just horrible -- a horrible feeling.

and i feel that a lot of my friends get sick of me after they've been with me for a while. it feels that way, and i hope it's not true.

unfortunately, i still feel that no one can understand me. that i don't have a friend who can genuinely understand me, but it's not their fault -- it's mine.. cause i don't really want them to know. maybe it's because i don't feel comfortable.

and i am seriously considering gsah. yep. neha needs to get me those applications, but it's back-up plan, but i guess it's a good one. especially when i only look forward to forensics practice and talking to bynum on school days. and unfortunately, half of that won't even be there next year. more like all of it cause it'll be weird.

i'm rested up though. that feels better.

and err, i think i'm going to make this blog private. i don't know, it just feels weird when anyone can randomly intrude on it and read it and talk about it openly. it's not very comfortable.

then again, school isn't either but i have to be there.

whee, grace is back. i know she still accepts me. :]

- Gary