i give up.

midterms count 10% of your entire grade.

so no matter how hard you work your ass off the first two quarters, if you screw up on the midterm, then you may have dug yourself in a hole that you really can't get out of.

and i dug two.

this seriously cannot make sense.

i'm trying my best not to cry because grades are a stupid thing to cry over, but WHY? how could one week, especially it being just four days drop all my grades by so much?

WHY ME?
WHY ME?

i did study for some, i slacked off on some -- i admit that. but were they really that bad? EVERY? SINGLE? ONE?

was me doing well on the tests and quizzes and assignments of the first two quarters really just a fluke? and luck?

now i can't even ace two of my classes.

seriously.

that's how bad it was.

i have never sunk so low.

and all my thoughts are just thundering me.

and
gradually
i will
d i m i n i s h
to

nothing.