to be or not to be: extraordinary.

sorry for not blogging till just now. the rest of the weekend was just eh.. nothing amazing or important happened.

academic team was really fun though; 4-3. i answered a good bit of questions too, so i'm proud of myself. a-team is really enjoyable and relaxing, and not as stressing as forensics. speaking of that, i don't even have my pieces picked out yet. ugh.

school was surpisingly good today. french ipa went really well. peri & i were roommates.. haha, yay? pre-cal test was successful as well. chemistry was okay, blah. it's always such a relaxing class! i did find some OO ideas in the article we read today though. english was a bit harder than usual. this grammar stuff is starting to get complex. government was interesting especially when i called mr. paddenburg out on being a republican and he got really PO'd. i hope he doesn't hate me forever now though. >.> the extra credit does seem fun though! woo obama '08. compsci was good. i messed up one small error on the "10 minute edit" for the test, but aside from that, i did really well i hope/i think!

drama was good. couldn't find the yearbook lady, so let's hope i can get my yearbook tomorrow, woo. the cold reading was fun and my "joe's second character" has a mixture of a chinese/indian accent. very intuhresting. came back home and played some paper mario. haha that was fun. mmm paper mario! english muffins for dinner, yum. and mini danishes, mmm! did english homework, blah.

so onto the inspirational/meaningful/insightful part of this blog. so i was wondering about the future, and worrying about it as well. i was worried about if i became a celebrity "overnight" like in the summer, like i hope, i wondered if i would lose my "ordinary" status and see what would happen. so yeah, with this, came a lot of questions. do i want to become a celebrity, famous, with my life exposed and divulged to the public world? and ossibly run a risk into things for my future? honestly, as hypocritical and cocky as it sounds, i think i have something to bring to this world, this life that i'm living, and what i'm supposed to do is to play an important role in the world and in the future. so my dilemma: what should i do? take the risk of becoming famous, or stay ordinary? with this, i asked ming, neil, and angela -- and got different responses, all constructive but in different views. ming gave me an optimistic, motivating response -- while trying to lighten up my heart and spirit. neil gave me encouragement with a lesson tied into it -- man, he is so wise. haha. and then angela tied it all together by combining both and giving her own original twist to it..

my firends rock.. i guess i'll have to find out this summer to see how my fate unfolds, like reina said. :) we'll see sooner or later.

today, i am content. it was a good day.
tell me, did you fall for a shooting star?
one without a permanent scar,
and did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there?

like neil said, i shouldn't change on the inside. i shouldn't forget who i am right now. i'm gfan to the people who really do know me. we'll see in the future, we don't know what it holds. :)

- nocturne xx