the vortex.

life sucks and if you say it doesn't, lucky for you. i have had a horrible day up until .. when i got home i guess. my whole bookbag leaked, my notes were wet and i was just an unorganized mess. lucky for me, i have some good friends (and some i didn't think would help!) that helped me along the way. very much appreciated.

french is awful. i can't do it. the IPA is going to be a disaster and she's not teaching us. pre-cal was a good time to study, and same with chemistry. english was good i guess. lost my agenda and couldn't find it ANYWHERE. luckily, mrs. wolff found it in her house. government test was UGH. i forgot who HENRY THE SECOND was so i missed 6 points. awful. i hope i got a 92 on it, but i probably didn't.. compsci was good since he is letting us retake it.

wake skemat links are up but not actually up. >.> strings was good i guess. sigh, i just wish my grades weren't that low. it's awful to feel all stupid when everyone understands everything.. but you don't & you ask a stupid question and get teased about it. it's just that awful feeling at the bottom of your stomach just telling you you shouldn't have done this.. you shouldn't have done this.

my piano lesson went fairly well. i got joe for the drama play, so that's good -- main character, woo! thankfully, the day got a bit better when carrie showed me this "AWAKEN" video that made me appreciate life more since today, everyone (including me) was complaining about how life sucked. sigh. dinner was good, wasted an hour watching TV.. when i should've done stats. but i'm caught up well with stats now. i guess. after so much difficulty on one problem, with people telling me i was wrong, i was wrong.. do you know how bad that makes me feel? think about it. if i told you that you were stupid, stupid, i am SO sure you would feel the same way.

if only you could see the vortex of emotions inside of me;
the mixture of seclusion, isolation and loneliness;
just resting at the crisis point, waiting to boil,
even though outside, you seem all pieced together,
though you're crumbling, you're falling apart.

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i need 100 on this stats test. God, i need it.

- nocturne xx