i don't wanna miss a thing.

it's been so long.. i feel like my memories are fading with every single day as time quickly falls and i lose the ability to keep my eyes open and my brain running..

i just got sick yesterday and quickly cured myself of it today.. i hope it was a cure anyway and not just false hope..

i know i've been complaining and whining a lot about life -- and if i'm not doing that, i'm sleeping because of lack of sleep, but i really do like life. it's just there's too much effort required for everything now.. there's no room for slack.. ever..

even though tomorrow i'm doing my safety events at the forensic tournament i still don't feel super confident. everything just requires effort. everything needs your 100%.. and sometimes i just don't have enough of that to give.

i failed a chemistry quiz the other day. i sort of laughed it off but when mrs. shoun told me she felt bad about grading it, i just sort of.. felt.. awful inside. i feel like there's just too much stuff this quarter and i just slept the days she taught this stuff and she knows i didn't learn it -- it's evident. and i didn't. i just hoped i could've winged it but ib is getting harder to wing every day..

i really just need to let open and fly.

standing outside with the wind blowing and the sky a vivid sea blue.. it's gorgeous.

can't we all just roam free some day?